MY LIFE - 50 For My 50th Day 27: "Sleepwalkin'" by The Violent Femmes and other coming-out-of-depression songs

For an explanation of "50 For My 50th", go here - http://oldermusicgeek.blogspot.com/2013/08/entertainment-50-for-my-50th-50-days-of.html

Well, eventually I pulled myself out of my depression and came to terms to my other psychological.

There was no magic spell or sudden event that changed me. I wasn't in a sappy movie. Can't even say the love of a good woman cured me, since this was before I met my wonderful wife.

No, what did it was years of therapy, the right medication, and me working through my problems. Little by little, with years of long and hard work.

It wasn't fun, but it was worth it. Made me a better person. Rather have not gone through it, but didn't have much of a choice in the matter.

https://docs.google.com/document/d/1Vn2SencrSL_0ujzefX_Bfc_j-KJhKJzSUTDJi3CiQs8/edit?usp=sharing



A playlist of out-of-depression songs including "Sleepwalkin'" by Violent Femmes:



Click the link below to listen to my monstrosity of a playlist, OlderMusicGeek's 50th B-Day, on Spotify:
http://open.spotify.com/user/127676752/playlist/1bRKV8LHJIL3JQih1ZSq76

MY LIFE - 50 For My 50th Day 26: "Something You Ain't Got" by Cracker and other coming out of depression tunes

For an explanation of "50 For My 50th", go here - http://oldermusicgeek.blogspot.com/2013/08/entertainment-50-for-my-50th-50-days-of.html

Well, depression, like so many things, can only go on for so long, before you hit rock bottom and realize you need to do something about it.

For me, it was when I was almost evicted out of my apartment because it had become such a mess and disaster zone.

That's when I got on anti-depression and made sure to stay in therapy.

It was a slow recovery, but it was a recovery.

https://docs.google.com/document/d/1Vn2SencrSL_0ujzefX_Bfc_j-KJhKJzSUTDJi3CiQs8/edit?usp=sharing



A playlist of depression recovery songs including Cracker's "Something You Ain't Got":

MY LIFE - 50 For My 50th Day 25: "Violet" by Hole and other angry depression songs

For an explanation of "50 For My 50th", go here - http://oldermusicgeek.blogspot.com/2013/08/entertainment-50-for-my-50th-50-days-of.html

Didn't realize I put so many songs about my depression on here. But I guess it and the divorce were the biggest and most traumatic part of my life.

Well, don't worry. We get into the recovery after this!

But one part they don't talk much about in depression is the anger. You do feel sad and lethargic. But there's also anger. Anger from the frustration of being stuck.

So these songs cover that aspect of depression.

https://docs.google.com/document/d/1Vn2SencrSL_0ujzefX_Bfc_j-KJhKJzSUTDJi3CiQs8/edit?usp=sharing



A playlist of angry depression songs including Hole's "Violet":

Click the link below to listen to my monstrosity of a playlist, OlderMusicGeek's 50th B-Day, on Spotify:

http://open.spotify.com/user/127676752/playlist/1bRKV8LHJIL3JQih1ZSq76

MY LIFE - 50 For My 50th Day 24: "From The Air" by Laurie Anderson and "Hitting The Ground" by Gordon Gano and other songs about how I felt when I was depresse

For an explanation of "50 For My 50th", go here - http://oldermusicgeek.blogspot.com/2013/08/entertainment-50-for-my-50th-50-days-of.html

When I was suffering from depression, I just felt weighed down, like it was impossible and too much effort to do anything,

Life didn't seem to have much point, and spent most of my time lying on the couch sleeping or watching tv.

The apartment went to hell and we almost got evicted.

These songs capture how I was feeling at that time.

https://docs.google.com/document/d/1Vn2SencrSL_0ujzefX_Bfc_j-KJhKJzSUTDJi3CiQs8/edit?usp=sharing



A playlist about I felt when I was depressed including Laurie Anderson's "From The Air" and Gordon Gano's "Hitting The Ground":

Click the link below to listen to my monstrosity of a playlist, OlderMusicGeek's 50th B-Day, on Spotify:

http://open.spotify.com/user/127676752/playlist/1bRKV8LHJIL3JQih1ZSq76

MY LIFE - 50 For My 50th Day 23: "Moody's Point" by Lipstick Homicide and other songs about depression

For an explanation of "50 For My 50th", go here - http://oldermusicgeek.blogspot.com/2013/08/entertainment-50-for-my-50th-50-days-of.html

Depression runs in my family. And it hit me hard. These songs pretty much describe how I felt when I was deep in depression.

https://docs.google.com/document/d/1Vn2SencrSL_0ujzefX_Bfc_j-KJhKJzSUTDJi3CiQs8/edit?usp=sharing



A playlists of songs that describe how I felt during my depression including "Moody's Point" by Lipstick Homicide:

Click the link below to listen to my monstrosity of a playlist, OlderMusicGeek's 50th B-Day, on Spotify:

http://open.spotify.com/user/127676752/playlist/1bRKV8LHJIL3JQih1ZSq76

MY LIFE - 50 For My 50th Day 22: "The Real Me" by The Who and other songs about my mental illness

For an explanation of "50 For My 50th", go here - http://oldermusicgeek.blogspot.com/2013/08/entertainment-50-for-my-50th-50-days-of.html

One of the best pieces of advice that I ever got was divorce is not a cure-all. All of your problems are not solved by a divorce.

And although it did save me from my ex-wife, by escaping her, I was able to let out other demons that I had kept down and had not dealt with.

And there were a number of them: depression, crossdressing and transgenderism, addictive behavior.

https://docs.google.com/document/d/1Vn2SencrSL_0ujzefX_Bfc_j-KJhKJzSUTDJi3CiQs8/edit?usp=sharing



A playlist of songs about my mental illnesses including "The Real Me" by The Who:

Click the link below to listen to my monstrosity of a playlist, OlderMusicGeek's 50th B-Day, on Spotify:

http://open.spotify.com/user/127676752/playlist/1bRKV8LHJIL3JQih1ZSq76

MY LIFE - Yeah, I'm NOT so limited!

If you see this, you're invited!

If you see this you're invited!

You can find all the info here - https://docs.google.com/document/d/1Vn2SencrSL_0ujzefX_Bfc_j-KJhKJzSUTDJi3CiQs8/edit?usp=sharing

MY LIFE - 50 For My 50th Day 21: "Monkey Wrench" by The Foo Fighters and other F-U divorce songs

For an explanation of "50 For My 50th", go here - http://oldermusicgeek.blogspot.com/2013/08/entertainment-50-for-my-50th-50-days-of.html

Well, Day 19 dealt with the break up. Day 20 with the actual divorce.

But as Jerry Seinfeld once said, you can be all nice and civil as you want, but a relationship isn't truly over until one of you tells the other "I never want to see you again!"

And I think there's some truth to this. You need to face and deal with the anger before you can move on.

So these songs were one way I did that.

https://docs.google.com/document/d/1Vn2SencrSL_0ujzefX_Bfc_j-KJhKJzSUTDJi3CiQs8/edit?usp=sharing



A playlist of angry divorce songs including "Monkey Wrench" by The Foo Fighters:



Click the link below to listen to my monstrosity of a playlist, OlderMusicGeek's 50th B-Day, on Spotify:
http://open.spotify.com/user/127676752/playlist/1bRKV8LHJIL3JQih1ZSq76

MY LIFE - 50 For My 50th Day 20: "Tubthumping" by Chumbawamba and other divorce songs

For an explanation of "50 For My 50th", go here - http://oldermusicgeek.blogspot.com/2013/08/entertainment-50-for-my-50th-50-days-of.html

(Well, due to sickness and laziness, I'm a couple a days behind here. So I'll try to have one out in the morning and one in the evening until I catch up!)

After I finally got the brains and courage to leave my ex-wife, I went through a rough period.

She did not take me leaving her well. She did everything that she could to make it our split up as horrible and miserable as possible.

It also didn't help that I only had a couple of family members supporting me. Fortunately, my friends did have my back.

But anybody who has been divorce knows it's hard to start all over again even if it's an amiable break up.

So this song was what I called my "divorce anthem".

https://docs.google.com/document/d/1Vn2SencrSL_0ujzefX_Bfc_j-KJhKJzSUTDJi3CiQs8/edit?usp=sharing



A playlist of songs that got me through my divorce or remind me of that time including Chumbawamba's "Tubthumping":

Click the link below to listen to my monstrosity of a playlist, OlderMusicGeek's 50th B-Day, on Spotify:

http://open.spotify.com/user/127676752/playlist/1bRKV8LHJIL3JQih1ZSq76